Wednesday, September 16, 2015

looking back


I thought I’d never write here again especially that the last entry was almost three years ago by now, tho I mentioned before that I can’t keep up more than one blog at a time I love to look back at the first ever blog that introduced me to some many things, so many possibilities and a million and one experiences that I keep account because there’s this blog to remind me how far I’ve been. Far does not mean success of the blog really but the journey it took me and the happy thought it brought about.

The blog started because I really wanted an online journal, the foodie and travel thing actually were just icings to the cake, what I wanted from the start was to document my life while I’m still at my stable mind, to recollect bits of my childhood, the awkward teenage years, my early beginnings at the corporate world and so the mid-life crisis. J

Tho mostly photo essays and babble then I was dismayed when someone hacked the account and deleted many parts of my story. You just don’t know how much time I invested and researched went by to finish a single post. Anyhow, as I begin the third blog at the early part of the year I realize how blogging has changed me, I learned from my own mistakes mostly. And it feels good when you realize how you’d become better each day.


Taking it slow. I’d like to but with the recent bedlam and unpleasantries and loss of a love one I’d like to satiate my need to express the pain, I need to write more to communicate my thoughts, I need to keep myself occupied to stop my brain from reeling over and over again on what happened.

In pain. I am and I don’t know how soon my road to recovery is.

Lost. I pray night and day that God will not forsake me at this difficult time that God will lead the way and carry me should I become weary along the road.   

I’d like to believe that I’m okay each day as I leave home, Christmas is fast approaching, 100 days from now and people are counting. I’d like to embrace the holiday and be excited as it come other than there are plenty of issues on my palm and I need brainwaves to sync right. I’m not allowed to do mistakes.

Enjoy happy days!